Journeys of Raph

2003-10-02T08:06:00.000-07:00

expression of da day:
._________________."
a.k.a
act cute face

2003-10-01T05:25:00.000-07:00

a new leaf turns once more..
as a new age of intense mind-bogging mugging process
begins anew..
such is the regenerative cycle of nature..
may we all survive..

2003-09-28T04:50:00.000-07:00

woo.. prelims ish finished liao...
song..
but start of another 3 weeks of grudging school
with even more intensive stuff..
sadsad..

been notified of NS enlistment date.. for those who keep bugging me about it
its 17 Feb 2004..
possibly going into the air force as vocation...
they picked me as potential pilot... LOL .... ME ME! LOL..
they got good foresight hehe..

2003-09-16T06:21:00.000-07:00

da most frustrating thing
is knowing how to do
but not enough time to finish properly
or doing too slow and exceeding the time limit for one
and suffering the consequences for the other..
help me..

2003-09-13T04:51:00.000-07:00

great!!! prelims in just 1 more day
LOL..
good luck
good game..

2003-09-10T23:49:00.000-07:00

what do u think...?
i am currently studying for my prelims..
which is not going well.. zzz

somebody help me....

2003-08-20T01:11:00.000-07:00

had a jc2 farewell pizza fest today..
as well as farewell for mr roberts whos leaving on friday
he had been in charge of synapse for so very long..
and its sad that he has to leave..
the new teachers can never be as great as roberts..
but hopefully they will do well..
at least the j1s look promising..

talking about the pizza thing.. turned out more to be
KELVIN's GREAT PIZZA TREAT TO EVERYONE
wow.. i mean.. i paid $41.60
while the rest are from those who turned up..
which is more than half the cost!!
KELVIN IS ALWAYS THE SCAPEGOAT..
or always kenna this kinda thing..
in the end i ordered the pizzas
and some j2s never even turn up..
its like.. this farewell thingy is supposed to be for the j2s..
and in the end the j1s outnumber the j2s 3:1
its a once in a lifetime thing.. and im really quite sad that it has come to this..

mr roberts is leaving and ppl dont even turn up to sign the card..
some complain that $5 is too much.. why dont stop eating macdonalds meal for a day?
a meal cost $5 too right?
oh well..
thats life..

its just excuses loh.. so can well see that theres a lack
of bonding and cca spirit..
thats the thing thats stopping synapse from growing and attracting
more ppl..
there is a lack of spirit and charisma which i have tried so hard
to foster during my term of service as VP..
and the P wasnt even there.. went home to eat and mug..
dont mug a few hours will die like that.. sianz..
thats why i always thought she couldnt possibly have led synapse as a CCA leader..
thats why got me.. luckily got me.. if not cca sure fall apart..

i hope the ppl who need to pay up will pay soon
cos im really broke now..
crapz.. i really see the hope in the j1s
at least they came.. and celebrated
the j1s this year will definitely make aj a better place..
the j2 cohorde are just too cynical and heck care attitude..
wish j1 council all the best!!
bring up the sch spirit!! and more bonding among the student population
that is my final wish as ex-VP..

2003-08-11T06:16:00.000-07:00

hai ..
long day today..
sian.. another long week..
cant wait for weekend to come!!

2003-08-09T23:23:00.000-07:00

wow.. amazing that i dont have much work to do this weekend..
went class outing on friday..
was pretty fun yea..

national day celebrations.. i am now the.. THE target..
everyone attacks me now..
and rape me.. and doing all sorta things to me..
help.. ugh
they nearly tried to rape me in front of every single girl in the hall.. omg..
luckily im agile enough to escape.. oh my..

heh we went up to the stage to extra
while daryl doing his lame shit dance..
so damn sia suay.. dunno the meaning of SHAME

so we went to sentosa after that... and had fun at siloso beach..
played chess with the guai gers who dun wanna swim nor play ball..
then went to play volleyball and captains ball which was kinda more fun
WOW the sand was so scorchingly hot sia.. burning my feet..
now my neck and nose are peeling off.. the skin i mean..
yea and they attacked me again by dumping sand onto my hair..

and somemore chased me out to sea.. which was a bad idea
i swam to the far off island... and they chased me..
haha.. problem is they dunno im a gold star swimmer and once they got to the island
i was already back on main land
and they were too tired to swim back.. hehe
dont underestimate my proness hor..

woowoo.. then went marina bay for steamboat
as expected now got blardy stomache.. as always
saw some old lower sec marist frens.. my god.. they are now so damn tall after like
4 years.. and voices all changed..
they cant recognize me heh.. until texas told them its me..
i guess i must be much cuter than last time liao.. lol
aiseh... so me and texas went to drink booze.. forgot tutor joining us.. lol
and drinking happily when he came by..
oopz..

texas cant drink.. took a few sips then nearly fainted..
then still wanna drink with me duh..
shouldve shared mah.. $5.50 not cheap one u know..
before that the bus was too packed
so me and texas hiked to the place..
and we happened to reach about the same time as the bus...
how very odd.....
talked about last time.. the lame teachers back at mshs.. and how the ah bengs
fought in the toilets and kicked the teachers asses..
it was quite fun back then..
short sch hours.. and pure guy craziness..
all the touching and raping.. damn fun sia..

we left marina at about 9+ and 6 of us went to serangoon gardens
violet KTV.. im sure vball gers will know the place..
well heather and the rest were saying that it wont cost more than $5 per person..
dunno what the room is free of charge..
reach there.. woohoo.. got jug of drink... tidbits... air con.. sofas cushions and sexy babes...
got everything la.. eh... no sexy babes.. hmm.. low class place...
sang for 2 hours
machiam like F4 concert.. played so many F4 and energy and 5566 songs..
haiyo... didnt get to sing much romantic english ballads!!! booooOOOO...
finish hor.. guess wad.. the price X 3 to $16/person
WOW!!! WOW!!! WOW!!! so now broke liao loh...
helped to pay a bit of heathers share
she no money...
sian man... now i no money also...

yesterday night went out to celebrate my kid cousins bday with uncles and aunties..
ate at this IMM place i think near bukit batok or smth..

yea so its hot sunny sunday afternoon now and i just came back from church..
went to st annes church to have mass with cecilia and her sis margaret..
since last yr i always thought that margaret is like 3 years younger than us.. sec 3 or something
but juz found out today that shes actually cecilia's twin sis... and same age ... j2 at srjc..
so... im sure everyone knows what happened la..
i genna slapped and ignored for the rest of the time there...
until i bought her drink hehehe..
not spiked though.. im nice guy..

sian.. now she wans me to treat her macdonalds next sunday ... with her sis..
if not she'll never forgive me..
confirm die la.. sibei sian.. where to fork out so much money treat gers sia..
not my gf somemore... whahaa..
but gotta save money.. haiz..

2003-07-28T08:08:00.000-07:00

is it one month already?
yawnz.. how time flies..

got shit grades for CT..
so now got parent-teachers meeting
which sucks real bad...
teachers and parents love to talk bad about their subject..
unfortunately.. my class high scores are pretty high
so my lousy ones will be compared to the great ones..
and then..
i will die..

but normally can resurrect back..
so dont worry..
death is just a cycle of life

council has gone investiture..
so am i..
worried abt cca.. only 3 members..
but hopefully can pull in more ppl..
and guest writers...

wish i was in j1 cohorde..
this batch has all the hot n sexy chicks..
whereas our batch has next to nothing..
sad case..

2003-06-29T07:23:00.000-07:00

exam period 1 week..
no time..
later..
see a few new pics at my pbase
http://www.pbase.com/klev/root&cmd=reset_hit_count

2003-06-21T22:52:00.000-07:00

wha so very tired..
48 hours flight from LA ..
stopped by at taipei
only slept 6 hrs!!
how to sleep on the plane when you get to watch
FREE movies!! whhaahaa..

blog later about the happenings over that side..
meanwhile can anyone update me on happenings here?
oh and i stayed by the seaside not downtown LA..
so super hard to get a COM.. the only machine at the hotel
was this US $1 for 5min thingy with RUBBER keyboard and touchpad mouse
sux..

the States is so totally different.. quite an experience!
i miss the tortillas.. nice prata-like thingys..
gonna sleep now.. day is night and night is day..
so wheres the afternoon?????

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzz

2003-06-10T06:04:00.000-07:00

im sooo in love le..
smitted and pierced by the stupid flying
baby cupid..
cant blame.. too nice.. hai..

turns out im flying on friday afternoon..
pengz..
this is not good
gotta cancel my hair appointment!!
means ive gotta make it on thursday..
which means i gotta skip history makeup on thursday morning..
which means... nono.. which is because.. wed the hair shop never
open..
which is because again.. thursday night got cca outing..
outing? wha to send me off? im so touched..
no la juz regular outing.. but can make it so..

arghz..

2003-06-05T08:48:00.000-07:00

hi people..
for those who dunno..
im flying to the city of ANGELS in the united states
on 15th juNe..
all come down send me off at airport wOr!!
hehe :P

when i come back .. will upload pics okie.. promise..
dun miss me..

2003-06-05T08:37:00.000-07:00

suddenly realize this year's j1 cohorde..
the gers very good looking quite i number of them..
eye candies..
e.g. jolene.. sancia.. wow..
omgz.. -.-

2003-06-02T04:12:00.000-07:00

its been a long tiring week..
wait..
the week just started!! oopz..
well then.. its gonna be a loooong tiring week..
with our SAT on SAT.. wow.. it rhymes.. or rather.
they sound da same..

the pe dept muz be cheating me.. so obvious
first tell me i only got 1 makeup..
clear finish say i got 2 more..
went to clear 1 today found out actually got yet another more..
wad the heck.. got 3??
and must clear by wed by hook or crook..
so went to run 18 rds ouch ouch.. song man..
so shiok.. so many j1 gers.. ahem ahem*
still dunno who this mysterious jolene is..
i heard many rumours that shes the angel of the j1 cohorde..
hmmz..
anyone know? pink bag.. like a model.. -.-

tml clear the last one..
then my class can play games!! wooozz..
sure get into trouble one.. i went for makeup and skipped history remedial
in the process.. but sometimes must put priorities right. right? ^___^
cca article still need to do... shitz.. haven started..

last week of sch.. yet so much work.. feel like dying liao..
econs sux.. at least i still enjoy doing lit and history a lot..
that gives me motivation to score..
but i hate econs man.. really shouldve taken c maths.. at least can score better..
taking that i got a2 for amaths during Os..
somemore maths can go for tution.. dun even know econs tution useful anot..
the teacher juz wont give u marks for essays...
sux..
sux and sux..
maybe will juz aim for a C.. which is darn hard to get le..
need at least Bs for lit and history.. or else i'll knock my head agst the wall..
pengz....

by the looks of my gp results.. dun think can make it to do law le..
so sux.. maybe will go do journalism.. or learn photojournalism!!
maybe a job of taking pics will be more enjoyable..
but always think about the salary factor.. but heck..
dunno la.. so confusing one..
still got long way to go...

happy that vball guys won first for aj..
there was a council bombarding session yesterday night in irc ...
those ppl suck bad bad bad.. complain so much when they dont even understand
whats going on..
they only care about their cynical selves.. their own enjoyment..
they complain the cheers sucked when they dont understand that it was not possible
to teach nice new cheers given the time constraint and reluctance of the crowd.. well not so..
its more about the time factor! but anyway.. they should go and reflect on what they are complaining about..
they juz dun understand..
cheers for council who led the cheer support.. did a real great job i think..
really can feel the sch spirit during all the matches...

now wishing the hockey gers best of luck.. and aj soccer team!
well if mickey wants the sch spirit to flourish .. then should give us halfday mah..
haiz.... ._____.
lalala.. so shagged.. like dog.. no.. puppy better..
the sun is setting le.. such a peaceful warm and fuzzy orange glow..
wish it'll just remain.. like this..
and im thinking of her her and her.. she smelled so nice that night..
cannot forget.. but so much complications..
really confused le..
but guess one should go with one's feelings rite? and go for it =)

twinkle twinkle lil star.. how i wonder what you are..
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2003-06-01T04:02:00.000-07:00

sch tml
last week..
so DREADFUL omg..
argh..

2003-05-31T06:02:00.000-07:00

how time flies..
like how neo flies inside the matrix..
juz watched matrix reloaded.. coolz..
tmr is sunday and todae is saturday..
happy partying tonight!

2003-05-23T03:43:00.000-07:00

its colllege day tml!!!
history test in the morninnnnggg!
omg omg..
lecture lectures..
cant go support vball..

2003-05-18T07:43:00.000-07:00

super tired..
going to sleep now..
my bed sheet has turned purple now..
oooo so cutez..
sleep on a purple bed..
next time come my house see okie..
nitez

dun be surprised if im not in sch tml..

2003-05-16T11:16:00.000-07:00

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ha ha ha ha ha..
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keep them for memorys sake..
so after 50 years.. you can play it back and see ME, yes.. ME inside!!
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AISHITERU!! :D

2003-05-15T08:53:00.000-07:00

Rurouni Kenshin

The tale took place about 140 years ago during the Meji Restoration
in Nihon...
One day on the streets of Tokyo, Kamiya Kaoru met the rurouni
Himura Kenshin. Fate allowed Kenshin to save Kaoru's life and in due,
the former Hitokiri Battousai became a resident at the Kamiya
Kasshin Ryu Dojo..
Kenshin lives a life of attonement for all the people that he had killed
with the Hiten Mitsurugi Ryu. But deep inside, he has never forgiven himself
for the one atrocity that he commited.. killing his own wife, Tomoe.
Kaoru wonders if she could find a way to bring peace to Kenshin's tormented
soul.. and gradually, the curtain of love draws them together.

Danger came as well. The attack by Junei with Kaoru's life at stake.. the duel
with Shinimori Aoshi.. Saitoh Hajime's Gatotsu.. All took their toil on Kenshin's
weak body.

Makoto Shishio's plot to topple the Meiji Government, to create an era governed
by one rule: The strong survive while the weak are but food that must die..
Kenshin was the only one who could stand against Shishio. To save Nihon and
to protect the smiling faces of the people with his sword, Kenshin threw aside the
peaceful life that he had come to love and cherish.

Tenken prodigy Seta Soujiro, Shishio's created evil, and the decision to fight Aoshi
a second time zapped most of Kenshin's strength. Shishio's hidden techniques
brought Kenshin close to death.. In the darkness of it all.. Kenshin realized that
he cannot and must not die. His will to live was enpowered by the 3 sisters who
gave their life to protect him as a child.. the memory of Tomoe.. and the strong
faith and love from Kaoru..

Despite all odds.. Kenshin stood up once again thanks to the time and sacrifice
his allies bought him. Makoto Shishio was struck down by the full force of the
Ama Kakeru Ryu No Hirameki - Hiten Mitsurugi Ryu's Succession Technique..
However, Kenshin's soft heart and vow not to take a life again cost him dearly..
a stab into his abdomen brought him down.. His strength was seeping away.. and the
coldness of death drew nearer and nearer. But Kaoru never faded from his mind..
summoning the last of his strength from deep within, Shishio's strike was blocked
and the battle was won as Shishio was consumed by his own fiery power..

Kyoto brought waves of memories back to Kenshin.. the very place where he had slayed
Tomoe.. and countless people.. Thus, the return to Tokyo was sweet.. as he stared
into Kaoru's loving eyes.. he suddenly found it worthwhile to live on..

Welcome home.. Himura..

The subsequent battles with Shougo, Kaitsu's Tokugawa treasure, Germany's Black Knights
and finale duel with Tomoe's brother Enishi are not covered..

2003-05-13T04:50:00.000-07:00

what sia..
the econs drq and case study so very hard..
do until so cham..
after sch 5pm no energy le.. still must spend 1 hr 45 min do ..
do halfway library close down..
scurry like war refugee up to 3rd floor..
do do do dunno how to do..
write wad? dunno.. questions keep revolving around the same thing..
3 [8] marks questions like nothing much to write..
die le..
do until everyone left..
staff room all empty..
teachers all go home..
students all gone..
caretaker come chase me away... all the lights off..
evening crows come to GWAK GWAK GWAK..
piak piak them ah.. so noisy..
give up le..
passup.. stole a glance at others' papers..
roughly the same as mine :D:D:D
means im not alone bah..

shagged until cannot shag

2003-05-11T04:40:00.000-07:00

mothers day!
went suntec to hav TEA
bought new pair of shoes..

oh.. and a gem stone necklace.. :P
i screwed up the wrapping.. i dunno how to wrap
but in the end looked pretty ok..
oopz and its not a mothers day present.. hehe
who im giving it to is for me to know and you to find out..

possibly taking econs test tml.. drq and case study.. heLP!!
tired tired.. walk around suntec..
got time go shopping for clothes

2003-05-06T05:23:00.000-07:00

down with food poisoning..
2days MC

2003-05-04T07:31:00.000-07:00

zzzzzz... hehe

2003-04-29T03:56:00.000-07:00

current wishlist - entire set of rurouni kenshin anime episodes! .____.
downloading 3 episodes day by day is too slow..

ugh.. so much work to do.. and its raining now.

thursday labour day.. going out wif ppl to watch xmen 2
maybe call more .____.

2003-04-24T07:40:00.000-07:00

The following poem tells the tale of a man
who made a vow with his lover to meet her again when she
has completed her studies in the States. They promised to
reunite in the heart of autumn.. when the beautiful cherry
blossoms bloom and fall at that time of the year. However,
the man died from bombing at the end of WWII without ever
seeing his lover again. Yet his love for her was so strong and
true that his end of the vow has binded his spirit to the very soil
where the cherry blossoms grow.. He awaits her spirit to reunite
with his.. even if it meant waiting for a lifetime. Upon hearing
the tragic death of her lover.. the girl had stayed on in the States
and married. She had meant to keep her end of the vow by
living strongly.. leading a good and fruitful life, not resorting to
suicide.. Till today.. the lonesome soul waits on..

Cherry Blossoms - The Awaiting Soul
Kelv Raph-

A promise made from a decade and two ages ago..
A vow taken in the heart of autumn
Sealed with unwavering love yours and mine..
Under the Cherry Blossoms blooming pink

Here I stand on this lonesome path
Cherry Blossoms are falling falling falling..
Beauty at bloom.. Perfection at fall.. Just like you..
Thy dark eyes.. the fragile spirit within..

The times we spent together.. from ages past..
Still smell the scent of roses from her hair, I can
Still recall the bond and warmth we shared, I can
With her sweet laughter echoing in my mind, I wait on..

Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow.. are but fragments of time
To which exists not.. for a wanderer of the spiritual realm
All in rememberance of a promise made from a decade and two ages ago..
The vow that binds me to this grave.. to keep beyond that which is death

Lovers were never meant to part..
But fate ever cruel do play tricks at times..
The day the birds of prey descended.. The wailing death that cometh
The night when I perished from the massive destruction inflicted..

All the while.. you were in the territory of the Whites
Educating in the medical arts..
While I laboured on in the land of the rising sun..
Awaiting for the return of she whom i love..

Among the Cherry Blossoms.. an isolated soul lingers
Waiting for the return of she whom I love..
Here I waited for ages past.. and will wait for many more to come..
Till the day her figure shimmers in from the horizon.. back into my embrace
For the simple yet eternal reason that : I love you.. then, now and ever..

2003-04-21T05:05:00.000-07:00

.______.
like so much work ..
how to finish?
upcoming lit test on sat..
clash wif the photog darkroom workshop.. quite sad..
though only half an hour is going to be taken away

then next week the econs tests start coming in.. omg..
so scary.. heh
so many ppl's birthdays this mth..
ruth, melissa, auntie kai wei, marcus, fiona, derek pua, shishi..
happy birthday all wor!!

finally get to watch othello play at victoria concert hall
its so cool.. i love artistic functions such as these..
oooooOOoo..
going wif candy..
should be quite fun larz..
looking forward to it..

returned pj's accessories this morning
dith walked past lt5.. *waves*
today suay.. got into gp teachers bad graces..
getting some special punishment >__<
cca issue gonna go publishing soon!
tonite muz finish editorial and contents page.. haiz..
dinner now bbubbyez

2003-04-15T06:18:00.000-07:00

rush rush slack slack
rush..
.________________.
cca work is slack
but last min work is tough
=/

2003-04-13T00:06:00.000-07:00

hehe.. hx lisa..
im not a thief..
its just called learning the basics
of a template..
kope here kope there..
helps learning ^____^

2003-04-12T23:49:00.000-07:00

test test..
hehz..
still no idea how to insert archives A__A
.______.

2003-04-10T03:57:00.000-07:00

sian..
sch has started le..
work has begun flowing in..
i am going to mug soon hahahhaa..
im going to score my As and Bs..
then i will go NUS study LAW.. whHAHHAHHAHAA
next time got legal business come find me hor..
i give u discount..

2003-04-01T20:35:00.000-08:00

stuck at home
under strict curfew becos of this SARS thing..

bad bad shuz sent a horrible april fools msg that she got sars and
in TTHS now..
i was on the verge of changing to go visit her since
she was going to hav operation
when my intellect awoke me from a possible illusion
scrolled down and found out its an april fools prank msg..
too much ahhhh..

forwarded to some ppl..
one started to ignore me.. another sent back wave of concerns :P
one bombarded me with curses and scoldings.. the rest no response..
must be cold-blooded..

starting work on thursday (^^")

2003-03-27T21:09:00.000-08:00

sars sars go away..
come again another day.. NOT..

2003-03-25T04:32:00.000-08:00

i have 4 words to say..
C C A Carnival..

2003-03-20T00:56:00.000-08:00

ugh.. blogged for too long..
started same time as mellow.. and now she has kinda halted too..
just not the type of thing for guys huh?
guys who update persistently are probably rare patient ones..

not that im not patient..
but its just everyday life.. nothing to talk much about
nothing much exciting..
its in the middle of the march holidays now..
been slacking away watching anime at home.. and playing around..

time passes.. feelings change..
theres really nothing much that one can do about it..
its just like the western wind.. blowing everything towards the rising sun..
changes come.. but yet a part still remains somehow..
as if that part has anchored so deeply into the beating heart that it just stays on..
resignment.. to the reality of life.. every window that it opens
may not be what they seem to be..

dont you just wish to be among the stars up high?
just stay there.. a piece of eternal heaven sparkling bright..
they witness the ages of man pass one by one.. forever anchored there
but even so.. there comes times when even stars die..
as they vanish with a majestic finale.. its particles resound through the entire multiverse..
the expanse of darkness and void so wonderously huge that it may take several years for the effects
of the star's death to reach a universe far far away..

if she is just a little sis to me..
why does the prospect of her leaving take such a heavy toll on my soul?
might even be just a possibility.. not to the absolute prospect
if she is just a little sis to me..
why does her smile bring so much warmth to my heart?
the heart that starts to pound when the eternal sweetness in her eyes speak so much..
if she is just a little sis to me..
why am i brooding in isolation with each passing moment of not being able to be by her side?
the isolation that brings so much torment and despair..

some things are not meant to be revealed or understood..
some things are just the way they are
eternal secrets to be locked away with no keys
will her passing bring an effect like the death of a star will?
the tormented soul.. the shaken spirit.. the lonesome heart.. the unwilling body
shall float on in the void enduring the surrounding shades
only to be comforted by the twinkling little stars who accompany them..

2003-03-12T01:53:00.000-08:00

its been quite a while..
im still poisoned.. but not so bad already
'chi' experts from all over the world have come to direct their
'chi' into me..
most of the poison has been purged..
yapz..

cca slack today .. slacker than ever before..
loooks like we must hav a small meeting during holidays to buy
the ingredients.. i mean the raw materials and make the costumes..
seriously hope they wont dress me up as a bunny,.
will look kinda out of place..
i still think dith will be the most excellent candidate..

quite excited about the weekend..
going concert.. den sunday maybe
going sentosa with council and some ogls..
msged obs ppl hoping to arrange some sort of dinner outing..
just one night.. everyone seems to be busy
but they better make time for this!!
>_<'

tata..
my photo of cai lilian got praised sia!!
by both roberts and ms ng..
happy happy! ^___^ ^___^ ^___^

2003-03-09T02:55:00.000-08:00

no important updates..
had food poisoning after dumping cans of h2o annd green tea and cold water
into my body..
feel so bloated.. after these past days still feel bloated..
now feeling better after seeing doctor
he said i caught the cold bug.. and this seemingly diarrhea is actually the cold..
huh..? .__.'

ok anyway had lit test yesterday morning... think i screwed up the pope essay..
Practical criticism was much better... i first time wrote 4 pages long essay!
wheepz... after the lit test had this leadership course..
but ran away halfway cos they were forming groups to play a game..
but i didnt have any group cos my frens were all zao-ing off..
quite fun la the crisscross hand game.. but all the groups full
so loitered around back in the LT with other stoning loners..
then decided to zao... went with sentill bro and shuz huixian and another vball ger
to amk fishmonger restaurant.. i mean long john silvers..
had a lousy money cheating meal ... they dont even provide tartar sauce.. give the old lousy chilly..
$1 curry rice cheat moneyyyy ah!
only the hershey dessert pie was nice...
broke my fork .. tsk tsk such a weak lil plastic fork...

crapz... ive picked up some of pj's bad language..
nvm.. shall change.. :D
after dat walked back to sch with themm... cos i nothing to do annyway..
glad i did.. was leaving when met idol coming into the foyer.. came for council..
she didnt take the lit test earlier so i was kinda worried..
escorted her to council room... past ah lian councillor who was making funny looks at us..
next time i make her and ah beng david go on blind date.. see how they fare.. :D

this coming saturday her birthday.. and she got council ogf workshop..
night time parents taking her out .... any celebrations was outa the question..
so i got a date with super-netball photogenic gal lisa to aj choir concert... maybe watch movie or dinner..
somemore later during the week i muz plan for the OBS outing... they all so lazy sure wont care one..
slacked this whole weekend... later studying for econs drq.. supposedly retaking tml..
dunnos.. tmls half day aso maybe going out with some classmates to watch show..
one of our few outings.. where less than half the class go
tml when i come back im deciding to finish up my talentime center page article...
haix...

juz now ate a $10 Mac Donalds meal
so bloated now...
ugh.. stomache.. buhhbyez..

2003-03-02T05:44:00.000-08:00

sian.
busy week ahead..
2 econs tests.. lit test on sat..
article due on wed..
haven started studying for econs yet..
stepf.. got ppl more li hai than u?
u are the most lihai person i know :D

2003-02-28T06:54:00.000-08:00

stilll lazy...
finished watching the red violin for gp lessons
now its back to old boring work..
the red violin is quite a good show..
abt a master violin maker whose wife died during childbirth..
thus he embodied and immortalised his wife inside his very masterpiece.. the perfect, red violin..
he stabbed the wrist of his dead wife and let the blood flow into a jar
mixed with the stuff he uses to paint the violin red..
so its become blood red...
den he cut a few locks of his wife's hair and made it into the brush used to paint the violin..
passes down the violin from generation to generation..
some kinda curse on it.. ppl playing from it get all kinds of stuff like illnesses and bad happenings..
last until modern day.. where its being sold at an auction and a negro man comes along swapped and stole it..
quite emotional.. a lot of flashbacks.. jumping between space and time..
one moment 16th century another moment modern 21st century
jump here jump there
like time travel..

wish i could time travel..
go forward steal technology..
go back into the past to have fun..

tml gotta go sch for leadership course 10.45..
supposedly going with tzi and pj..
pj got maths test i think.. wish everyone taking the test luck..

oh ya today was o lvl results day...
all my xiao meis super powerful...
geraldine got 15..
azaria got 11.. WOOO! nice work..
tracy.. dunno yet.. but cant be bad.. she so smart!
my newest xiao mei.. charlene..
wah this xiao mei super smart one.. got higher than me leh!
7-pointer.. i only 8pointer.. make me this korkor feel paiseh..
but ya she was bursting with bubbly joy when i called her..
muz be super happy la.. i aso veri happy for her..
hopefully ive done my part.. convinced her to stay in both aj and cca..
im gonna personally groom her into the future president..
teach her everything.. wah being korkor is so fun...
tataz. =)

2003-02-24T05:15:00.000-08:00

lazy lazy me...
history test was qt ok..
and gp paper 2 was qt ok too..
feeling lazy now..
a busy normal week of sch again..
today after sch became a servant of council..
they were whining at me abt being tired after PE and all..
so i took pity on them and helped them buy drinks from the canteen..

2003-02-21T19:22:00.000-08:00

aiyooz.. sad.
talentime results werent as i expected :(
but darrelle won best dance category!! nice work darrelle!
screwed up article.. now dunno wad to write.. haix..
cant i juz do the normal normal reporting article? why muz make it harder by dunno wad
following up certain performance groups..
i did.. followed up jun hui's and texas's groups loh..
not so sure yet..
felt quite empty yesterday.. cannot get into talentime atmosphere..
maybe too preoccupied with taking pictures.. couldnt go up balcony and cheer with the class..
im a stupid newbie.. i screwed up quite a few pics.. cos flash photography is kinda tricky...
the shot isnt taken immediately.. so timing in crucial..
i think i took a few with the target's face blocked or facing away... sianz..
wah i think the digi cam ger from photog very sexy.... lol..
when she comes near me seat near me positioning.. quite hard to breathe... oopz
den everytime start to take pics.. go into some sexy pose... haiyo..
take pic aso need pose one..

shouldve joined photog.. dunno why i join this cca..
which is basically a combination of photog. eldds. & visual arts..
plus theres a severe lack of manpower.. and we get to publish something dat comes out 4 times in a year
and dat is so much inferior to the teacher cum staff's magazine AJ Link.
this sucks... theres nothing to be achieved in this cca..
funding is limited.. i don get to use the dark room dat photog has..
the art is inferior to VA's.. the supposedly students magazine for students is in black and white
while the teachers for students one is in full color plus glossy paper..
this is horrible man..
the only thing dat we are supposed to learn is how to coordinate and communicate as a team..
which hasnt even been accomplished..
our notice board is a crappy and disfigured blank.. there was a plan to re-do it last year..
but somehow it has not been done..
with the severe shortage of manpower.. we'll still have to see how many 2nd-intakers are coming in..
if its juz a few or so.. can juz close this whole cca down...
dats my negative overall view on it...
after all it is still a valid cca.. and students do get cca points in it...
juz basically a slack cca.. and ppl get more time to concentrate on studies...
this is juz only against the cca.. the people inside are fine..
im juz crying against myself for not joining photog in the first place..
even though i wont be able to get into its exco.. i may be happier there..
but i contradict myself here dat im aso quite happy in publications..
if i didnt i wouldnt have gotten into the exco without doing anything
cos at dat time there was nobody to elect at all... its like whoever got into it first
get recognition from the seniors and thus get elected..
think ive said somewhere before..
if i didnt become vp.. i wouldve missed a lot many chances..
such as alpha bravo camp.. cca leaders meetings.. interaction with other student leaders
and most importantly of all outward bound 2002.. so no regrets..
nothing can be done anyway..
juz dat if i ever get another chance.. maybe in university..
i'll definitely go join the photographic society..
taking pics alone is well.. very lonely.. dun hav partner..
im the only one taking pics.... no dark room.. costly.. sianz..
dun even know wads the limit of the sch funding...
im promised funding.. but if i tell them $30+? will they still give???
teachers and house exco are asking for my pics like theyre all free like dat..
hey im not sponsored by the sch like photog.. waste film like siao..
happy den shoot shoot shoot.. i where got so much film?
get so much film as paiseh to ask for funding....

monday got history test... pia for the weekend.. no gai gai..
but dun care.. today gonna play 1st...
idol not free... sad.. sad.. sadded... arghz..

2003-02-20T03:31:00.000-08:00

TALENTIME TML!!!
alright!! supporting 2 groups tml.. nono.. 3 groups!!
1.TEXAS AND CHARMAINE (WINNER TEAM)
2.CASSANDRA AND DANCE TEAM (JUN HUI. HUI XIA my pokemon!!!. HUIQING n another GAL) googogoogogo *whistles*
3.DARRELLE CLICK CLOCK DANCE!! WOO..
everyone must support OK!!
EXCITEMENT.

and right now im sitting here munching danish butter cookies..
called up music theory teacher ask for postponement of lesson..
really cant take it today.. especially after PE and waiting till 6pm for my ezlink card..
horrible day!
made plans with pj abt tml's talentime..
really need help.. cos i gotta go cover the literary week finale aso from 5-6pm..
making it impossible for me to go queue earlier for seats...
EXCITEMENT.
I WANT TO TAKE PHOTOS.... :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D..
INSIST AH. like wad joycelyn and ruth would say... :P

tmls is the super slackiest day.. u all wont believe..
cos history lessons cancelled.. and one more lit tutorial aso dun hav..
so counting in total from start of sch till 4pm..
i got a total of 8 breaks.. WOW.. not 1 nor 2 nor 3 nor 4 nor 5 nor 6 nor 7.. BUT EIGHT!!! :O
SO.... i wont be coming to sch in the morning.. very possibly...
maybe only come at 2.30 for the last 2 lessons.. den charge up camera for battle..
hoping PJ... PLZ HELP ME GET THE SEAT!!! PLZ....plzplzplzplpzlz........zzz....
seriously need it.. no others can help me already..
councillors all busy.. classmates all got literary finale with me..
:D
BAI TUO... BU HAO YI SHI....

2003-02-18T07:24:00.000-08:00

took a holiday from sch today... hahaha....
gonna be a busy week ahead..
with gp and history tests coming on sat... econs test on thursday
moreover.. gotta attend various events e.g. literary week .. talentime
to take pics....
queued 45 min on monday to get 2 talentime tix... a lot of ppl cut queue in front...
but being great and open of heart.. i let them do so... x__x

today escorted pj to the airport.... sending her on the last flight out
to istanbul...
( which is not true )
( ya i know.. not funny.. ok.. )
was sending an old fren back to australia...
if u can call her an old fren.. but in a way we are...
its been so many years.. though we come into contact only once in
a blue moon...
but its really good to send her off..
and dat she still remembers me.. though she wasnt sure whether
i was kevin or kelvin..
i remembered her asking me the same question juz last december during sjs.. haha
blur little gals..
pj's ex-classmates werent bad....
i actually know one of them.. who was in the same church camp group as me
during our confirmation camp i think...
but she kinda forgot.. its been 3 years or so...
i still got her warm fuzzy letter somewhere.. hmmz
pj's cute.. she was trying very hard to lead the way.. but somehow got lost..
e.g. supposed to be at terminal 1 but were waiting at terminal 2..
went wrong way for the sky train.. talk about the blind leading the blind..
2 blind mice lost in the maze known as e singapore changi airport
LOL LOL.....

juz bathed finish
gonna go bed now... tmls gonna be a long day
with NUS law thingie.. and literary week stuff..
possibly cant attend CCA.... maybe going to watch texas's practice..

2003-02-16T07:27:00.000-08:00

what can one do when a supposedly good friend backstabs you and hurt you intentionally...
i deeply regret everything that happened.. but some things in life cant be changed..
the sands of time cannot shift back to the past...
i cannot find it in my heart and soul to forgive.. even though my religion preaches forgiveness..
when will i be able to forgive friend and foe like lord jesus does?
can someone tell me how?
how can i forgive someone whom i counted as a good buddy who in turn backstabs me?
how can i face this reality?
its a sad cruel world out there... theres really few people to trust...
sometimes i ask.. are you my friend?
but for the sake of someone.. i will continue to tolerate this hypocrisy...
WHO ARE FRIENDS?????

2003-02-14T16:46:00.000-08:00

juz woke up at 7am to bathe.. lol
yesterday said i was gonna go bathe and sleep but in the end
fell asleep while lazing on the bed.. lol
too tired... everyday sleeping for less than 6 hours.. not to say waking early
for false alarms on magazine distribution...

the actual thing yesterday was super screwed up...
thinking back on what went wrong... i seriously dun think its any of my fault..
to my knowledge i did my best already....
the thing is.. theres no communication at all.... i wasnt actually informed
by president until LATE wed night... so im supposed to sprout wings
and weave magic around to make sure everything will go fine???
shes gonna be sick on thursday so couldnt come.. den throw everything to me at the last min..
wad the hell...
luckily thursday the announcement kinda wasnt shown to mrs tay...
so postponed to friday...
i got so much work piling up already... plus thursday being a long day with afternoon PE..
after that i still got piano theory lessons right after sch...
after dinner think i finally got time around 9pm la....

called and informed everyone up... cant even finish my tutorial becos some ppl are super hard to reach..
i didnt mind the work anyway... i didnt think it as too troublesome or difficult..
juz basic organizing... and everything will go fine..
actual morning itself.. i arrived at 7.05... den not a single soul was around...
7.10.. still nobody..
7.15... ridzuan came slugging in.. den nicholas...
ok at least the announcement ppl are here....
speaking of the announcement.... they are supposed to prepare it in advance...
and rehearse it... they dun expect me to do everything from organizing and contacting
to distributing carrying manual labour to doing the announcement rite??!
so in the end.. not enuff manpower.. only 3 of us... the rest dunno die until where..
*btw this does not include dith and pj nor the j1s... theyr new*
den time running out.. we used our precious rehearsal time... to carry everything box of magazines from 2nd floor staff rm
to aj square... slowly 2 more came in to help... at wad time? 7.20..
ok carried everything so what? aj square packing up already with students...
7.25.. i trying not to panic... we juz distributed 1/4 of the magazines.. totally screwed up..
siewtzi suddenly appeared out of nowhere... ask if we need help..... -________________-
super pissed sia...
like.. duh we need help...
in the end.. we only distributed out abt 2/3 of the magazines...
we 3 went up to hall first.. den realized we dun hav a stack of magazines...
we basically went up there without any idea wad we gonna say or do...
and i haven done any announcement up there before... the proposal was gd
but no rehearsal no nothing... juz screwed up and the message didnt get across...
totally sucks...

dunno wads wrong with me.. i sent them both off cos i know something bads coming up...
dats why earlier i sent pj off 1st... dun wan her to come back later and get scolded for nothing aso
reached aj square.. the 4 were being scolded already...
den cos the whole thing supposed to be my responsibility... all directed at me..
took it quite cool... doesnt matter.. didnt bother to give explanation...will be only seen as weak excuses..
so im still blaming everything on myself.. if everyone had come on time... den we wouldve the manpower to do the carrying
while the 3 of us prepare for the announcement.. at least make it more entertaining..
one of the worst days of my life.. never got scolded by roberts before... i always took great care
not to be...
im actually quite angry with the others also... jian wei wasnt even there for assembly when he knows that we're
distributing today... carmen was there.. only in time for the scolding..
the j1s told me they had a lot of work.. so couldnt help.. thats ok..
but the j2s been here for so many months.. they should know wads going on...
distribution day one of the most important events of our super slack cca..
cant they even take the responsibility to come early on time for such a day??
we only give out 4 magazines per year.. or 5..
and the september issue this yr will be our last.. means we only hav like 3 more issues??
so aj square was in a mess... the empty boxes and remainder mag still there...
siewtzi and carmen helped a bit to put some into pigeon holes.. they got lesson can understand..
only i got 1st period break.. so i alone carried everything to the storeroom.. put into pigeon holes.. throw away empty boxes..
by the time i finished.. shirt kinda soaked in sweat.. super hot.. in a super bad mood...
ignored all my class ppl outside canteen eating.. juz sat down to catch a breath...
totally spoiled valentines mood... i expected to juz help with distribution and the announcement being taken care of by them..

muz apologise to pj.. i was planning to give her the rose before assembly..
but kinda in a mess... so sorry..
bumping into her at lockers didnt give me any choice
so kinda anti climax to give down there..
was rushing off to lecture at the time... cant even stay a bit longer..

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by the end of lecture i cooled down already..
council delivered the stuff i ordered
so im armed with 2 roses and a box of 8 choco.. and my soft toy present..
realized my moneys been cheated.. the rectangular choco box got 16 chocos..
and selling at same price as the heart shaped box...
council quite smart... den one stalk got no leaves one.... like very naked..
only the red rose quite nice.. leaves and blooming..
but actually of all those flowers.. pj's white rose was the best actually..
cos i bought from the wet market one.. haha
cost 3 times the council flowers.. hehz but as long as shes happi dats ok..
found out that the choco gave out already.. so went to cassie at the council stall bought another
rectangular one..
at the end of the day gave out everything.. hahaz

lets see wad i got in return..
tidbits from pj.. a naked closed blue rose from grace that looks dead.. -___- prob. from council leftover 'failed' stock of flowers
a cd casing filled with words from joycelyn.. sweets from debby.. this funny straw fillled with soft drink and sealed with magic at both ends
dunno how they seal one.. from aunty bear kai wei and jun hui.. stepf gave me a choco bar.. candy from joanne..
a chocolate supposedly from cecilia but she forgot.. said will gimme on monday lol..
overall not bad lar.. although made a great loss in economic terms.. its still the thought that counts =)
seem like everyone had plans on valentines... some mugging for the physics test i heard abt today...
some going out on dates.. some going out with frenz... while some other betray me.. if theres something
i'd rather be told.. not to be kept in the dark and betrayed.. especially when i thought we were friends..
so kinda spent a lonely valentines night... dun quite matter.. been going on for 17 years anyway..
but maybe cos i juz grown 18 or smth... this year feel kinda sad...
maybe watch too much meteor gardens and jap shows..

8.44 now..
wanna ask someone.. anyone out to watch 'catch me if u can'
kinda lonely today..

2003-02-13T04:50:00.000-08:00

wishing every couple and single out there in the world...
may you hav a wonderful valentines.. filled with love and joy..
under the guiding stars may you experience a memorable
journey with your loved one and friends..
may st. valentines and god bless you all..

2003-02-11T02:18:00.000-08:00

urghh..
performance had a lot of technical errors..
somehow right before the show.. none of the mikes can be found..
so how are we gonna shout out to the audience of a fully packed auditorium???
den starting some music didnt come out as well...
though this is only a rehearsal for the j2s.. the actual thing being friday for the j1s..
quite embarrassing la...
but guess the content more or less made up for it... heard a lot of laughter.. glad ppl liked it..
all the accidental errors made the show even more funny..
worst being vanessa's WATER TO AIR... rofl..
i supposed to freeze and stone there.. but cant help it nearly laffed out sia..
tat stupid ger actually turned the process upside down... omg

today was really rush day man..
cos haven done history tutorial.. den gotta do the cheetah house board design aso..
in the end still managed to finish.. ending at 4.45 a longgg day..
was like sleeping the last 2 tutorials..
after the performance immediately went with texas outside audi to do the design..
actually its only me.. hahahha he never do anything.. juz lent me a blue and yellow highlighter and a black pen..
as if i can design anything like tat lol... but did it anyway..
was desperately finding a ruler.. lucky pj was there to lend one.. lol
if not dunno gotta run council room to borrow... again..

the literature tutorial.. teacher didnt come.. so the class sat there stoning..
lucky for us.. me and texas finished copying the history tutorial.. within 20min..
a group sat down to discuss the play we are doing for literary week...
den another sat down playing silly kindergarten games and waving their hands around
singing F4 n 5566 songs...
den the 2 F4 crazy fans heather loy and joanne choy purposely come disturb me
why?
cos i got the ringtone for 'huo yan de ji jie'
den keep bugging me.. in the end gave up phone to let them copy the composed melody..

probably gonna be a lonely valentines on friday la...
damn sad... no date... well its been going on for 17 years anyway..
so 1 more year wont hurt...
but got some plans la hahhaa thx to shuz..
possibly going j8 to watch 'catch me if you can'
a lot of ppl cant make it cos the following sat got physics test...
maybe joycelyn coming.. den sentill bro... not confirmed yet..
anyway tml hari raya... dunno wad to do aso...
no outing no nothing.. probably stay home and rot....
see 1st... gotta finish one lit essay anyway....
sometimes i dunno wad goes on in a ger's mind... although most of the time i do lol...
but juz sometimes.... at a loss..
great.. may some genius go write a book 'an indepth study of a woman's psychology'

oh ya..
gave mellow a 8R photo of her class + cheetah house champions..
she seemed happy enuff.. lol

2003-02-08T23:32:00.000-08:00

hey everyone plz delete my old contact number..
new one: 97507939
arigato-gozaimasu!

2003-02-07T02:30:00.000-08:00

past days got back super late..
and with a lot of work to do..
slept very little too... so super tired..

this morning for the first time got to school early at 7.10
celebrate yuzhong's mini birthday..
couldnt find them at first.. walked to canteen
den back to aj square suddenly they were there sitted down.. wierd huh..
anyway yuzhong hasnt arrived lol... and i was told to find something to light the candles..

lol..
i went to my old fren the hokkien mee uncle
borrowed a gigantic wok lighter..
not bad rite? lol

there were only a few ppl there..
but luckily ive called other obs frenz and councillors along
thx to joycelyn ruth debby huixia for coming..
assembly was gonna start soon.. so no time for sabo-ing haha
but shouldnt sabo aso la.. 1st period of sch haven even started...
today very sleepy... slept through quite a few periods...
den after sch did makeup PE... shaggy... haix

well tml got to go do flag day over at novena..
meeting idol and frenz at novena mrt tml earlyearly...
so guess tonight muz sleep early !!! hahahhaa..
after that dunno if got to go back for family gathering.. and collect my very own handphone lolx...
hehez
apologies to texas.. cant be there to watch his audition tml..
im gonna pull some strings.. juz now make up PE mr lim kok wee
suggested that texas be allowed to sing superman as a performance item..
something like " heres a special performance from the talentime winner of 2002 "
the competition is gonna be stiff... but still hope he'll win..
whos IC of talentime ah? stepf ah? lol :P
im coming after u soon.. lol

2003-02-05T01:57:00.000-08:00

____----====>>> SPECIAL "THANKYOU" SECTION <<<====----____

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i dunno wad to say. lols
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maybe i would like to start with a gigantic ::* T H A N K Y O U *::
to everyone who were there for the mini-celebration of my bday..
lols....
it juz so happens that i had decided to take a walk around the school
cos i was rehearsing with class in the audi ...
and my phone batteries suddenly went out..
it happened that i walked past the canteen without seeing a thing..
den suddenly this melissa low came along and pulled me to the canteen..
got one wierd gathering there.. lol

stepf huixian yuzhong sentill and shuyi down there
dunno wad to do.. stunned loh..
its like totally unexpected.. cos earlier on met them den never
get any hints or anything at all...
yapz.. ok i was thinking the red plastic bag had to be a cake..
cos before that my idol.. cecilia & charmaine was attacking me outside council room..
keep on demanding why i never give them cake??!
i was superrr blur lohz -

i dunno the exact sequence of things la... in a daze..
only remembered sentill shouting for me to stand on the table top...
super paiseh!!! the canteen so crowded.. lols
i juz mentioned abt wishing to get sabo-ed on bday.. stand on table.. HAHAHHAHAHA
but sentill bro took everything serious lol....
hahahhaa but im super happy for that.. after all it had been my wish :D
thousand thanks to sentill bro for doing this..
words cannot express my gratitude.. haaha
ya.. so the ex-OGLs were rocking the whole canteen a loud birthday song..
omg.. it was super loud... really dunno wad happened la haha
saw siao wen and yihan clapping aso lol at the other table.. den caught sight of CK umchio umchio...
madness.. lols
dunno exactly who came to sing.. kinda light headed up there lols..
think face super red.. haha but once again thanks so muchies..

ok im not dumb.. lol
told me to take the candle out with my mouth LOL HAHHAHAA..
but somehow either they were too slow... didnt managed to get me..
hey u all simply CANNOT loh!!! lol... later i got to go on stage rehearsal... den got CCA!!!
u smash the cake into my face.... i dun need to go anywhere already!! lol..
played along.. so gotten down to wiping a bit of cake and choco about my hair and face...
and WHO STUFFED THEM INTO MY EAR??!!!
ARGHZ...
hahahha not to forget .. THANKS for the 2 rolls of film... really happy to get them...
im running short of film haha

after the whole thingy.. walked back to audi.. looking like a clown holding the cake bag
cake all over my hair and face...
lol... omg..
im not gonna say who laffed and laffed at me loh hahaa..
sianz.. went into audi everyone was sitting there.. watching a rehearsal
den everyone stared at me.. oh craps!!!
went back out of the exit.. chionged to the toilet ah...
oopz....

--- special thanks to pj ---
seems that shes the only one who passed me a card... hahaha i like it very much thankies..
think its very sweet and nice..

many thanks to everyone who came by to shake my hand wishing me..
idol.. cecilia lim..stepfie..cassie..grace hui.. cecilia lee.. stella angeline.. toh huimin.. joycelyn ruth.. dith ben.. synapse ppl.. everyone! lols..
thanks!! for the most memorable and wonderful birthday i ever had..
im really very touched =) ::( pj stop ur awwwwwwww-ing now =P )::

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---< TRUE ACCOUNT OF A BIRTHDAY RAPE >---

Today, 5th Feb 2003, is my 18th birthday.
This afternoon, at 1pm, the guys in my class attacked and raped me in the toilet outside LT3.
It was a very close shave.. I was severely injured. But I survived.. like I always do after such attacks.
I was in the toilet cubicle when everything went silent.. Being well-trained, I sensed a disturbance in the
Force. The dark side approaches, in the form of 5 cruel aj students.
They have discovered my location. There are only 2 cubicles..
I am surrounded. Luckily I've locked myself in.. but they are waiting right outside..
coo-ing me to come out..
I pulled myself up over the side wall trying to escape.. but I was spotted.
And my face smashed with a wet mini ball of toilet paper.. ouchz
slipped and fell cut my knee and wrist.. These beings are merciless and cruel..
I readied my lightsaber which was non-existant, bashed open the door and fought..
There were 5 of them.. I sliced through them, making for the light and the salvation known as the toilet exit..
I was bombarded with missiles.. The way was blocked.. I was once again surrounded..

I only had a few seconds to catch my breath before..

they cornered in..

AND RAPED ME.... ARGHHHHHHHHHZZZzzz...

after that the bastards escaped in their gang back to their HQ at LT3..
i staggered out all wet and bleeding..
a crowd had gathered outside the toilet to witness the commotion..
Beaten, I struggled back to LT3 to have my revenge.. but oh.. Lecture had started.

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**** NORMAL BLOG SECTION ****

yays. today my 18th birthday..
so fun.. so eventful.. lols
its 5.51pm now.. and im super hungry
stuffed the cake into the fridge to save it for dessert
later mum taking me out to serangoon gardens for dinner..

gonna eat quick.. cos i still gotta prepare for a econs essay test tml..
and a history tutorial undone.. maybe for that i'll hav to copy.. haix..
class rehearsal for total defence today wasnt bad..
i got a role as the PM of Singapore... so stay tuned..
it should be quite a corny skit... quite farny..
so hope everyone enjoys it on the day..

stupid texas.. never come on my bday lols..
said he had forseen his sickness and wasnt coming..
doesnt matter..
tml gonna finish my roll of film taken on monday at esplanade..
got 9 more pictures to take..
den i can develop both film rolls...
hehez

was glad that pj stayed throughout the whole cca meeting..
i was kinda scared that she'll run off halfway..
i knew she had smth to give me haha.. =X
2 new gals joined today.. from 31/03 i think..
but still kinda sad.. cos a lot signed up but never turned up..
anyway left the sch looking a terrible mess...
gel all gone.. splashed water to clear up the cake bits..
hehz..

super hungry ah!!! going to eat now!!
tata~~

once again.. a final THANKS.. =)

2003-02-04T05:10:00.000-08:00

as always .. like last year
im the first and the last supporter of Texas & Charmaine
i watched through all their trainings and rehearsals..
since sec sch ive been supporting tat goon-head texas hong

likewise for this year im doing the same..
im even covering them specially for synapse..
how to write i haven thought abt it yet..
maybe smth along 'The Making of Stars'
i have full confidence that they will clinch the championship this year again..
im a very strict music critique.. taking high level music theory makes a person thus..
but from wad i hear.. a glimpse into wad they have install
i can only say one thing.. i got touched from the moment charmaine clinked the 1st note..
touched in the heart.. the song is juz so gd.. being sung by texas..
that is true talent.. if im touched.. so will the judges.. and the audience..
thus they will win the championship..
i implore to all the animals humans and things i know..
PLZ SUPPORT TEXAS & CHARMAINE this coming AJ TALENTIME 2003!!!
vote for them when the voting boxes come around...
do ur part and make them WIN!!! GO GO GO!!

heres the song..

Santa Monica - Savage Garden

In Santa Monica, in the wintertime,
The lazy streets so undemanding.. i walk into the crowd
In Santa Monica, you get your coffee from
The coolest places on the promenade.. where people dress just so

Beauty so unavoidable, everywhere you turn it's there.
I sit and wonder what am i doing here?

But on the telephone line I am anyone, i am anything i want to be.
I could be a super model or Norman Mailer
And you wouldnt know the difference, or would you?

In Santa Monica, all the people got modern names
Like Jake or Mandy, and modern bodies too
In Santa Monica, on the boulevard,
You'll have to dodge those in-line skaters, or they'll knock you down

I never felt so lonely, never felt so out of place
I never wanted something more than this

But on the telephone line i am anyone, i am anything i want to be
I could be a super model or Norman Mailer
And you wouldnt know the difference

On the telephone line i am any height, i am any age i want to be
I could be a caped crusader, or space invader
And you wouldnt know the difference, or would you?
Or would you?

2003-02-04T03:02:00.000-08:00

whee.
turning 18 tml..
or can countdown 5 hrs from now lol..
18.. can do so many things.. go learn driving.. go into pubs
yipee..
waited for so long.. remember 10 yrs ago.. used to wish
im gonna be 18 one day

hehe!!
happy..
yesterday celebrated an early birthday with my idol..
splurged quite a lot but im happy content..
doesnt matter..
once in a year thing anyway..
tml no way to celebrate or anything..
gotta stay back to rehearse our class's total defence day performace..
im hoping to get the role of the Singapore Prime Minister..
lol!!
den i go up on stage wave here wave there... yeeaaaaa....

2003-02-02T07:09:00.000-08:00

its 4.20 pm now on this lazy sunday afternoon...
at my aunty's place now.. came early here dunno for wad..
cos i woke up late and my mum nagging and scolding left church without me..
so i went christ the king church at amk for the 11.30 mass...
so crowded so gotta stand...

den after that went in search of food..... but too bad all the food centers closed..
so hungry.. took bus to bishan
walk walk walk.. suddenly realized the film roll i brought along cant open any film strips out..
wad the???!!
i realized that was the film roll which i rewinded without taking a single shot..
cos its a 200 series roll and i switched it for a 400 series one..
sianz!! didnt know after rewinding the roll..can no longer use anymore.. sucks rite..
no one told me.. im dumb..
den i dun hav any spare film aso...
was walking along the stretch of road along bishan stadium.. MOE language center..
was so windy blowblowblow.. quiet cooling..

anyway called pj at her house.. asking her if she got spare film la hahaha..
she gave an answer which i couldnt catch.. so i juz like 'errr... ya'
turned out she didnt hav any! den she kept telling me abt this 7-11
which i dunno where in the world is..
but luckiily the photo shop over at j8 was open!!! it was one of the only 4 shops which were open..
used ang bao money bought another set of 4 400-series film rolls..
after that went to nonya wok to eat a $5 hokkien mee.. very nice and yummy... =D~~~

so went up to auntys to put down stuff..
my 2 younger baby cousins were there with aunt..
ok la one not so young.. juz came over singapore to study pri. 6 at australian international sch...
she quite poor thing one.. like me the dad ran away dunno where..
den mum working as hotel manager in kowloon shangri-la
so now shes coming to singapore to study... i can ssay that the international sch system
is much better than local ones... from wad i know
the teachers are friendly facilities are good.. they seem to get more holidays.. and less homework..

since im in the neighbourhood... had decided to pay pj a visit..
her house actually qt near to my aunts place...
so here goes..
smsed her.. she replied she'll be leaving in 5 min time..
and i was still at aunts place...
dunno should go or not.. but since im so bored.. and i really wanna see pj
so ran all the way cutt across all the void decks to dunno where..
ended up below this blk 121 which i THOUGHT was her block..
but wierd enuff.. there were only 4 stories.. so like.. something is wrong..
called her.. and she said her block was 141.. LOL
wheeee... great.. ^_____^"
so didnt get to meet her take pics after all.... hopefully will get another chance in future lol
so went back to aunts place...

put down my camera
took my bag ( which i won from a counterstrike competition last december )
idiot guys in class said it sucks.. but im proud of something that i won..
er thats not all of cos.. there was cash money lol...
now ive made a legend of myself in singapore's gaming community
and retired from the pugilist world..
aso kinda forced.. with a lvls this year and ns next year..
this time is the peak of singapore gaming entering international arena.. and i cant be there for my team..
kinda sad.. but no choice..
by the time i graduate and everything.. dun even know if i'll be playing anything at all..
but i still hope to put aside some time for gaming.. its one of my loves..
besides photography

its 4.36 pm now.. and ive bought a ticket for the 4.45 show Cat & Mouse
some chinese show starring andy lau and cecilia cheung.. dunno
no other shows at j8 at this time... so anyhow buy
so sianz....shops closed cant go shopping...
pj ran off to visit relatives.. was hoping to go up her house bai nien...
den fan bian camp in her room or smth hahahhahahahax

later everyone coming to eat dinner... the last reunion ..
so yupz once again wish everyone a happy chinese new year...
year of the LAMB!!! NOT GOAT!! preacher was preaching abt the goat being an evil sign..
so muz say its the year of the lamb.. demons always got goat legs remember..
no la.. exaggerating.. he didnt exactly say that yar..

BYEBYE
go watch mousey falling in love with catsie..
no idea wads the show gonna be about..
so sad so lonely LOL
tata

- sianzation @ kelv raphael.com

2003-01-30T22:47:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
WHEEEEEEE...
chinese new year celebration was great!!
loved the musical by the PRC scholars..
think its the best performance..
great singing and nice slide shows..

sat at the back of the class
councillors all there too..
the 2 graces.. debby and cyndi behind..
den grace hui suan me um chio again.. everytime..
smile smilez..
saw tat they had a lot of fun... dancing around cheering and using explosives..
'borrowed' one explosive from my idol and poped it!!! WOOHOO.. BAM BAM!!..
den joined in to sabo CK... damn fun.. lols
its gd to see them having fun..

wanna go out of sch.. budden raining la..
hahaha..
hoping to see someone familiar with umbrella den go kope it..
too bad dun hav lols..
heard someone calling me.. den turn to see pj smilesmile run away..
everytime like that lol.. so fast gone haven even reply byez yet..

escorted idol out of the sch gates..
she offered to lend me her file to dodge the rain from my hair hahaz
so touched ..
but being me i of cos didnt accept and we parted..

now at home.. rainy rainy weather..
wonder where everyone is..
gonna go reunion dinner at my uncles' area soon...
bbye!!
once again happy new year!!

2003-01-29T23:16:00.000-08:00

hehe
came back early from sch... playing truant..
dun wanna stay for the 1 lecture and 2 tutorials and PE...
its chinese new year!!! why stay so long in sch??
teacher kinda caught me running off.. so asked me to show her MC next time..
by the 'next time' hope she forgets abt everything...
juz hire witchdoctor do some voodoo..
brain wash her mind while shes dreaming during some stormy dark night..
'u did not see me running away.. u did not see me running away.."

yesterday was crosscountry....
yapz.. as i suspected
couldnt get excused.. so gotta run =(
but not too bad la...
i injured so i slow jog...
a few hundred ppl chiong past me....
my shoes slippery la.. den climb slope tat time like wanna fall down..
i think running on the road more fun.. got wind and sound of cars...
den the downslope woohoo so fun..
managed to catch up with a lot of ppl while on the road
all of them no breath and walking..
den i juz jog past them
i only stopped for a couple of times.. at the bus stop to disturb texas the water boy
drink some water... den stop another time near the end.. while going up the steep slope

reaching the end.. if i dun run den kinda paiseh... so i went at a relative well pace..
grace hui at the road kerb.. call me dun um chio again.. den i juz laff laff went past her..
wah sianz..
reached the last stretch of road when my classmate suddenly jogged past me...
so i thought only 2 of us.. i gonna win
den i started sprinting.. but wad the heck.. he started sprinting faster than me...
blardy shitz.. so in the end lost.. we were like sprinting like mad...
i couldnt catch up no more energy... somemore i injured sianz..
but damn sia suay and paiseh.. lose to him...
haiyoz..
nbm.... got a lousy ranking but heck
juz wanted to get to my camera...
but texas had the security tag and he was somewhere at the bus stop being water boy ...

so arghz.... couldnt get to it.. returned a few more times.. and got rejected by shuyi and 35/02
sianz....
meanwhile PS taking all the good shots..
but finally got it back and finished a whole roll of film..
speaking of the pics... ive colllected them already.. theyre now here with me
will scan up and upload later...
cassie wans her class photo badly...
hehez
cos i developed more than 30 film strips.. den gotto enlarge a photo to 8R
so i decided to enlarge melissa's class 0102 plus cheetah champions photo..
collecting tat one 2 days later..

uncle gonna kill me.. i better try to go find a replacement lens cover...
i dunno when i lost it... maybe i juz dropped the bag and it rolled out..
1st time texas found it for me.. 2nd time dunno went where...
sianz...
next time i better keep it in the zip pouch...

after crosscountry went j8 with KR and class ppl to eat..
ate jap ra men... drank 2 cups of ice milo...
tat day i drank a lot of ice milo... lol..
sure gonna get phat phat and phat... =(
after running.. saw my idol chiobu grace tay queueing for ice milo..
den asked her help me get one cup lolz..
den suddenly got more guys go ask her to help them get aso..
wah sianz.. wanna steal my idol away...
if i still had energy will push them all away lolz..
i asked 1st lor..
anyway got my ice milo... hehez so nice.. yummy fav. drink...
last time i go around singapore taste all the ice milo...
the best is still in serangoon ave 2 the kopitiam...

saw pj 2 times
1st time she came hopping along looking super hyper.. dunno why
but quite happy to see her too..
she said shes happy cos she met a lot of ppl.. huh??!
lolz.. dunnos..
2nd time was after crosscountry when she proudly told me that she walked
hahahaz..
but this kinda thing very hard to write out one lol
cos got ppl reading...
so this sorta makes blogging very superficial..

2003-01-28T02:29:00.000-08:00

walking past audi yesterday after sch ended..
den day dreaming..
suddenly heard a byebye..
dismissed it.. later someone shouted 'ehh.. kelvin'
i turned around and look around blurred..
this gal i dun recognize smiling and saying byebye to me..
hahhaha dunno who so paiseh
den anyhow reply back ehh. byebye..
thought its tabbie cos i still cant recognize her..
but dunno la..
too blur.. too many faces..
who ah?
if that someone read this plz tell me lol...
ahhahaha..
really sorry abt it..
i was suffering from headache..

crosscountry tml...
hope to get an excuse from cca to let me take photos...
so dun hav to run lol...
tml go try my luck
today couldnt contact the teacher..

2003-01-27T05:54:00.000-08:00

sian man..
looonng days ahead..went saloon to cut hair.. lucky stylist never change lol
i only trust kenneth lol..
forgot its new year..
was charged $19 but only got $11..
so im in debt now lol..

2003-01-26T03:00:00.000-08:00

this weekend quite slack
not much work to do..
got one tutorial due tuesday
but not gonna do until monday..
tml got double gp wish i can skip...
sure fall asleep wan..

later going over to my favourite fashion shop
buying 1 new black pants + 2 nice shirts..
den going to collect photos
enlarge pd tutors photo... and choose another one to make 8R
most probably will be either my photo or ck's.. lolx..
but i scared spend so much on ck not worth it...
wish hav someone to go out with lol...
juz to watch movie.. or pei me go somewhere take photos..
kinda lonely...

2003-01-24T19:31:00.000-08:00

::MY CLASS GOT NO CHIO BUs:: taken from zesin ::
lol... wootz.. lets celebrate~
my class got no chiobus my class got no chiobus...
yipppeeeee.... zesin and me got smth in common...
he can go turbo every guys asses for all he wants lol ^^d

some classmates and me stayed back on thursday to decorate our home room
for the coming chinese new year ....
it was kinda goood as in we did something together.. but its only * SOME *
like the hockey gals fiona and joanne.. KR the winter cock.. celene peiyong curren
the other ppl all zhao off home like theres no tomorrow...
finish last lesson... all disappear off
come sch .. lessons.. break time study.. finish lesson go home... at home study study.. night sleep... morning wakey go sch
wow wad an enriching and exciting routine...
theyve probably been doing it for the past years of schooling.. so gotta be nothing new to them..
look at my 1 page tutorial... compared to their 6-pages tutorials.. make me sick..
wad to do lar... was lazy last year.. trying to do some work for this A lvl year already...
im not stupid.. i came in with L1R5 higher than most of them...
juz lazy lol...

went for fuego steamboat.. ate with song butt and one of the vapor guy jun hao or smth...
we 3 at one lonely table.. cook our own meat...
i didnt get to eat much actually... juz cook cook and cook...
den ppl come over to kope our food... den ck lenny and hx leaving..
so muz go around taking pictures using flash photography...
at the very end.. didnt even get to spend the whole roll of film... and ive gotta develop them
by tomorrow.. and enlarge the photo of our pd tutor for the class...
boring saturday.. no one to go out with ... so sianz... no where to go take pictures..
gals always hav so many frenz to go out with... guys suck.. all stone at home..
if not is to go play ball... for those without gfs..

sorryx melissa.. actually wanted to send all the way back home wan..
budden its 11+ already.. and mum nagging me to come back
sianz..

semangat dying.. as expected..
im gonna organize outing during march holidayz..
maybe a whole day out at sentosa or smth...
bring back the spirit we had during our sailing at obs..

joined AJC SC forums...
quite a gd idea.. so when all of us leave college.... and go to our army life and universities or work...
hopefully we can still keep in contact in these blogs... irc... or forums..
and still get to meet once in a while..
we're all growing up.... turning 18 this year.. gonna be adults very soon...
childhood has passed... teenagehood is in its prime...
adulthood approaching.. will our perspective of life change?
how we feel about certain things.. certain ppl?
these years of teenagehood are supposedly the most confusing ones..
with all the random thoughts that teenagers have coming in flying all around their minds..
theres no end to these seas of thoughts and ponderings...
all the ppl railing at their blogs.. all the questions.. actually all is known deep within yourselves..
the answers are there.. juz that ur not aware of them..
i feel wiser than a 100-year old man.. -____-

synapse pub. may seem slack to a lot of ppl...
well it is lol....
no saturday meetings.. only wed sessions...
no other meetings on any other days... except for events and stuff..
4-6 issues per year... and minimum of work to be done for each issue is 1 article...
this tends to make members slack and stuff... i know very well that some ppl just join for the sake of a slack cca..
as the vp..
im hoping to attempt to make a change... ok there is no try -yoda
im gonna make a change.. starting at once when the new second intake batch comes in....
after the trial first issue...
we're gonna put in all the effort for the FINAL ISSUE from the j2s... and the second one for the j1s..
we're gonna try to make it go FULL COLOUR... at least make a try at it...
i believe its possible... to take up this challenge from mr roberts that no previous editorial boards have managed..
meanwhile im gonna train up my photography skills... pei jun muz help me okies.... cant do it alone..
and hopefully we'll get enuff manpower from the second intake...
make a try... to make a dream come through.. to make the issue sell out to the rest of singapore..
for those who dunno... publications issues HAVE been circulated to outside of sch..
to other colleges.. secondary schs... international schs..
and it has been given a lot of credit... for the quality of it.. and the work we put in..
out of 36-40 pages of coloured A4 paper... black and white interface...
hopefully the other members will follow my lead towards this goal..

***juz a note to all councillors like stepf..cass..***
juz realized how much hard work and planning u all do for the college..
all the energy and sweat put in..
and yet ppl do not appreciate it e.g. dirtying up aj nexus..
going boooo- when mr tan wanna tok about college values..
know that we- this community of aj leaders who bear a love for the sch..
are supporting u all 100%..
we're gonna make this 2003 a fine and memorable one...
all the best for both our spiritual academic and social growths..

2003-01-22T02:29:00.000-08:00

out of 20 j1 intakes... 4 came for the very 1st meeting..
haiyox...
i was even thinking that maybe some of them got Hep. B screening...
didnt know j1s didnt hav to go for it....
planning for next issue already when the current ones not even out...
trying to publish it up b4 the march holidayz....

took up Talentimes article... which would be easy...
i can juz do it on my buddy texas... hoping he'll win 1st this yr again...
he has to win!! den really got smth to write on ...
so much for going full-time photographer for synapse....
with so little manpower.. tat has little hope.. and ive sorta been appointed
the official editorial do-er without my knowing...
the new teacher replacing ms usha isnt that bad.. qt friendly too...

speaking abt photos... juz received a i-cant-believe-it news....
sch can actually fund all my developing of photos!!! not from our own funds..
shouldve told me earlier.... the orientation photos had cost me a great deal....
the few j1s who came had potential....
that is.. if they r staying on after 1st 3 mths... esp. charlene.. she has the potential to become
the next president.... i believe she got both talent and charisma to do it..
see how ....

met flawie and pei jun for first time... saw them milling around outside the room already...
but didnt know was them.. maybe look too good la... cannot recognize
* S H Y * * B L U S H *
juz realize that they may be reading this so betta stop now lol...
as usual only got the president and nicholas sim....
nicholas was going on abt his fav. pervertic and sexual issues... homo... sex... mrs tay... as usual..
quite entertaining la... but after hearing for so long.. got kinda zzz....

i wonder if i can get a cca excuse slip from synapse to skip cross country????
den can take photos ¬.¬ hehe
roberts didnt say no.. so i'll go pursue the matter if i hav time...

2003-01-20T02:13:00.000-08:00

well well....
its monday and its raining pretty heavily now....
sch is so long and tiring....
tml is yet another looonng day to come... all the way until 4.45..
one piece of news... dunno whether its good or bad..
this coming saturdays UN seminar has been postponed to march holidayz...
so gd or bad? =____="
the future is unpredictable.. and the past is forgotten..
wad we have is the present...
ok so logically it should be a good thing..

yesterday spent 3 hrs learning from my shifu uncle antonio...
im his 1st student.. and ive learned really a lot..
so now im sorta like a professional amateur.. hehe
oxymoron.. like shuyi said
cool.. i can apply literature to wad i do and say.... proves that ive been diligent in my lit..

got $50 ang bao from my youngest auntie.. so gd...
bought 7 rolls of film...
shifu uncle probably forgot its my lunar birthday and didnt give me anything..
and i aso too paiseh to say out... hahahha where got ppl go ask for ang bao one..
added together so far... im gonna go buy a new pair of bellbottom jeans...
get smth tats not too bright... not too dark....

crashing fuego steamboat outing on friday...
at marina bay... great location... really perfect
i was looking for a place to go take photos.. and marina is juz perfect....
night time too.. means i can make use of my flash knowledge...
im sure ck wun mind.. since he likes me so much..
hes one of my fav. models too... the picture i took of him impressed mr roberts and got into synapse..
becos of him i got praised hehe...

i feel like joining photographic society.. but gotta find out more
cant seem to contact any of its members though...
i wanna tok to the president but shes always so elusive..
if i can join as a 2nd cca.. that'll be great...
den i can learn how to develop negatives on my own using the dark room...
and maybe even be able to do duty by covering college events...
now tat ive got a highend camera to match all of theirs..
ive decided to retire as synapse journalist.. to become 100% full time photographer...
i'll make a proposal this coming wed...
photo development cost.. we share... if not its really gonna be very costly....
hope a lot of j1s will turn up... hehe

2003-01-17T21:34:00.000-08:00

sentill:hehehe.. actually i aso not very sure haha
parody is like 2 incidents which are very very similar to one another but they just happen in different dimensions.. different time zones...
its like a repetition of certain events.. :D

its saturday already... injured back.. ouch*
recovering soon...
went back sch for morning history lecture... so sleepy...
mrs woo's voice is hypnotic...
den next sat gotta go back again whole day.. for a 'UN' seminar....
duhz.. where everyone go out and present their research on the United Nations...
gotta take up all the time unti 5+... oh man.. one weekend gone...

happy stuff:
tml im going to my uncles place to receive a gd camera with zooming abilities....
its gonna be a treasure...
i juz fell in love with photography.... its so cool
and romantic....
to capture feelings and moments in a rectangle...
a truely skilled photographer would be able to do so in his own unique style...
and that picture has to be able to attract.... an image to leave an impression...
that will be a true photograph...
able to take someone without them knowing it at all... can reveal their true expressions...
of joy laughter sadness anger or determination.... anything at all....
the real expressions... not the fake ones put up juz to look good infront of a camera....
the fallacy there doesnt make a photo great...
its the true expressions that do it...

for my coming birthday 5th Feb...
im not expecting anything... actually i would like to get sabo-ed...
maybe obs or council frenz.. juz sabo me up onto a table and sing me birthday songs...
that would be nice... cos its the final yr of JC... and i missed such a chance last yr.. cos... of a lot of things...a
presents: again.. dont expect anything.. cos parents never got me anything since young...
dad is gone far far away.. dunno where..
mum maybe gimme a few bucks to buy smth...
so i think i will really be overjoyed if anyone juz gimme a card or smth! LOL...
lame....
actually aso.. wad i really want are films films and more films to take photos..
so can cover up the cost of developing photos a bit...
i will be really happy if anyone can get me some photo films.. one roll.. anything!!
hungry for films =D~~~
birthday falls on a wednesday... sighz... dunno la see how 1st..
wed got PE aso... probably gonna spend a lonely birthday again...
well doesnt matter... going army anyway... lots of lonely birthdays to come..
when i enter balchelor-hood...

2003-01-15T17:11:00.000-08:00

lazyyy.. so much work to do...
synapse issue coming out... and rushing like mad....
editorial arrangement layout argharghargh.....x
today didnt go sch... been sleeping very little past few days...
and doing 10+ standing broad jumps shagged thigh muscles...
normally dun work so hard on there... juz running and pullups..
right foot always seems to land a bit on the mark.. so cant pass...
so left foot always land first with weight.... so kinda injured.. a bit paralyzed..
cant walk properly.. like crippled like tat haiZ.... sianz..
probably take the weekend to recuperate...

discovered sentill bro and i are on pretty much the same wavelength.. ^5
lol
kinda dumb.. read his blog and its like reading my own thoughts like tat hahahha
abt sch and cca..
abt love..
if one takes literature... he'll probably see quite a number of parodys
to achieve smth.. to make this time memorable.. a place to call home..
+ his thoughts on council.. desire to be part of.. but afraid to commit all...

hehez.. enjoying the day at home while classmates suffer till 6pm
muahhahahha.... -_______-"
hehe stiill muz do essays.. pass up tml...
bye i go rest...

2003-01-12T08:32:00.000-08:00

hehehe
my own villagephotos at http://www.villagephotos.com/pubbrowse.asp?selected=138059
uploaded every pic ive got so far...
easy interface.. for a noob like me to use,,,

2003-01-11T06:39:00.000-08:00

---------->* [CCA] cARn|vAL oN WeD *<-----------
we did so much better than expected... recruited over 23+ J1s...
really surprising... last year's 1st intake was like ... 3 ppl..
maybe its becos of nicholas sim's intellect and marketing abilities...
or was it carmen and siew tzi's charm? LOL dunnoooo
if me i sure cant advertise so well one... i was juz walking around the sch
sightseeing... giving out flyers everywhere.. directing them to out booth..
went to disturb the council booth.. so fun.. they had sweets there.. and a radio...
went to 2nd floor of mph to the VA booth
saw charmaine and cecilia there.... gave cecilia a thankyou note for all she had done for
me during OBS..
she apparently left 2 VA marbles at our booth for me... so sweet and nice =)

1 week into sch and i still have not completed all my work....
theres more GP punishment homework.. + econs online tests which i swear will finish by tml...
and theres 12 lit essays?? can i finish all tml? pray hard..
PD Tutor wanna tok to me abt smth...
i know wad already... cca carnival tat day loh..
i forgot to bring tie... den walking past canteen CIP notice board
got this small indian lady and many students...
dunno wad they doing
den that lady like point to me and SQUEAKED...
and shes so short and small that i thought she was some foreign scholar from the j1 intake...
yar she really squeaked.. so i couldnt hear anything with all the chatter from canteen....
den i juz stare at her wierdly and walk off LOL...
later she chase me around the canteen.... and scolded me like mad...
wad the...... i didnt even know theres this finE system of $2 for not wearing tie...
duhz... last year i could juz rent from AJ Enterprise....

oh crapZ.... on thursday i took early leave... went back to cheong a synapse center page article on Orientation...
so many pics the layout had to be spectacular ..... its so tough...
I worked on it till midnight.. and many thx to melissa who stayed through the ordeal with me online
giving me much encouragement and motivation to go on.... tHX MELISSA!!! =)
when it comes out its gonnna be my 1st masterpiece ever... mr roberts even praised me for the layout
so happy =)
he rarely praises ppl...
hes so impressed that he gave me the job to do the editorial for this issue.. which would mean more work urghhh....
im hoping to make it a 2-page editorial so i can include some of my experiences and maybe a couple of pics from OBS...
i dun think i will be able to get a proper article done on it....
cos mr roberts is kinda unwilling... i wanna say im really sorry to the ppl from my OBS shift...
ive kinda promised i'll get photos and an article on it.... haiz...

tats abt all .... hopefully after one more week ... i'll have cleared all my holiday homework... hehez

<<----------- p.s. thX shuyi for posting up orientation pics... do drop by her BLOG at www.zaboshuyi.blogspot.com
view the orientation pics i took... the better ones anyway LOL.... ------------->>

2003-01-07T05:51:00.000-08:00

ok heres a quick update...
ive finished my GP homework.. finished my history essays..
finished Econs written work...
now i only hav 12 literature essays left.. plus all the econs online tests on IVLE...
lit essays duE on friday..
but if i dont bring.. den the deadline would become monday rite? =)
hehe.. so todays tuesday..
after a whole weekend of orientation.. + pia-ing homework on sunday and monday...
i think i deserve a rest =)
so i'll juz slack away tonite... hehe stepf was amazed at how free i was... she still very busy with work i guess
i came back from sch.. scanned in my new set of pictures on orientation finale night.. =P

now den i know photos are so expensive... develop one set + 24 set filmroll can cause me like $15+
if only synapse can pay for my expenses =)
but its quite worth it.. to capture great moments of life in little rectangular glossy papers known as photographs..
after all there wont be another aj orientation ever again in life...
the next event i'll cover specially will be AJ Family Day... if i continue taking pics like this.. i'll be broke =___="

orientation finale night was like so cool... even though my job was juz there to observe and take photos
sensing the aj spirit flaring in the air was a bit too much... so juz finished the last roll of film
and joined in the dancing in aj square....
GO AJ GO AJ!!! WOOO...
mightve been a bit extra without an orientation tee.. but who cares?
enjoying one of the best events held by aj council and cheering for aj is more important...

yapz.. tml will be CCA Carnival... gotta go earlier at 1pm to set up our booth...
+ theres morning PE tml... oh crapz.. haven been exercising getting mightily phat...
muz train more to get silver in napfa.... main challenge is only 2.4...
i cant seem to get to a silver timing... damn... muz try harder

school life seems so much better now when u know more ppl around the sch...
i wanna form a kinda information network within AJ...
like some sorta spymaster =)
realize thats wad i wanna do with synapse.. not juz writing doing layouts and publishing...
synapse allows me to connect to the student population of AJ..
get to know more ppl.. which is gd..
compared to 1st 3 mths when i didnt know a single soul besides marists...
there are also some ppl in the sch whom i would love to know better... but juz wont get the chance to do so...
so sad... like lydia and grace from 29/02
lydias first gal that chatted me up ... remember we were outside LT4 tat time... both of us not taking C MAths nor AO MAths..
so always hand around together... was very shy last time... maris stella boys sch..
but can feel the warmth and frenliness from her..
now shes in interact club.. and we talk from time to time... only getting to see her during literature lectures...
well .... -___-

grace tay.. my fav councillor + top idol...
shes soooooo pretty... soooo full of charisma and juz so cool....
haiz...
nobody can be like her..
and her hair rocks =)
since january saw her hairstyle change 3 times.... so cool!!
yapz.. juz wish can know her better.. if she had gone for obs 2nd shift
tat mightve been a different story....
stepf u too.. and many others who went for obs 1st shift..
how ideal it wouldve been if we couldve combined both OBS shifts together...=)

its going 10pm now... i'll juz listen to songs... relax for tonite... irc and stuff...
NO WORK TONIGHT!!! YAY....

(*Listening to: Dong Li Huo Che - Man 01 - Zhen Shou Ai Qing*)
... im in love with this song.. so romantic.. =)

2003-01-02T01:56:00.000-08:00

1st day of school...
survived the day somehow...
with 4 essays due tml... final deadline
and the rest due on monday..
this weekend im sure gonna die..

wont be able to hav classes at blk 11 anymore.. hehe
we get to use the lousy old block 1...
with all da rusty chairs and tables...

timetable still sucks...
hope my chinese can make it... den dun hav to retake..
haiyoz...
the new batch of j1s.. not too bad lar..
got a few marists here and there lol...
somehow this year's isnt as big as last year's...
maybe its juz the lower number of j1 intakes...
or maybe that the cca carnival isnt part of o1..
its juz on some wednesday afternoon....

ok tonite dun need to sleep..
was raining hard just now.. hitched a hike from a classmate..
was planning to stay on to watch o1... but with the assignments..
i need all the time i can get...

chiong homework!!!

2002-12-29T07:08:00.000-08:00

urgh...
sch gonna reopen again.. omg omg OMG
HELP!!!!
haven done much homework...
and time is running out.. lolx

lets slack the rest of the days away yea!!!
=______="
got scolded bad when mum came back.. somehow the clothes i washed
turned up bad.. i mean i put in the washing detergent and all.. and pressed the buttons...
argh dunno lar... its juz bad...

xmas going.. the snow is ending
so sad..
but a new year and spring comes... bringing much more life and hope to the world...
the cold has gone.. and the sun arises anew... its rays spreading warmth throughout
mother earth...
yawnz.. sleep.......

2002-12-24T09:38:00.000-08:00

nothing much ..
im home alone now..
no one calls me to go bed nor to bathe
no one calls me home when im out past midnight..
lalala..
a bit lonely hehe
today my frens mum called and brought me with her daughter to French Place somewhere in singapore
its a roadside restaurant selling french food
had fish fillet with olive + mashed potatoes
escargo too.. ate 6 of them..
den finally ate tiramisu with the gal.. ^^

i watched a show saying that tiramisu tastes like love
whenever 2 ppl eat it together it feels different from for example.. another couple who eats it..
so i shared it with my frens mum's daughter which is also my fren.. hmm... something sounds wrong there

anyway the tiramisu tasted rather nice... sweet and bitter together... hope to get to eat it another day with special someone..
ok forget the whole thing..
anyway im back now... home watching rented VCDs...
like so sian... gotta start doing holiday homework

ooo my xiao mei juz merry xmas-ed me... muz go msg back ^___^
MERRY XMAS ONE AND ALL... WARM WISHES!!

2002-12-22T11:14:00.000-08:00

hehe had obs christmas BBQ/GAthering today at grace hui's house..
damn cool.. great food great games fun fun fun!! ^____^"
best part are the presents...

the best i got is from jun hui... cant believe she just like read my thoughts and
gave me something resembling a star...
well its a star-shaped bottle... filled with some kind brown sweets..
very nice decorated with all the girlish magic =)
too nice la... i damn touched.. lol
and u know how much i love stars!!!
lucky she also loved the present i bought for her... a musical turning thing with bears.. lol
its really nice to exchange prezzies =)

joycelyn and ruth gave me some wierd T-shirt..
surprisingly the size fits me roughly....
ok lar not so wierd... got a lot of philosophy at the back...
but its really nice
black with very nice prints on both front and back
muz treat them to meal some day =P

kianyong gave me a pink windchime.. omg....
like so gay lor urgh... =P

grace's sketch in photo frame is super nice lor...
its a sketch of our boat semangat.... damn cool
well decorated and all... im gonna keep it well for memories

never really got to buy other ppl presents during xmas..
so this probably my 1st time =)
my most ex- prezzie was this big pink piggie
costing $19.90
plus a music card $3.10 and wrappings $2
bought for "the hunger" joyce in AJ council... hmmz..
dun care loh... she better not say me anymore lol... or else i take it back ah!!!
lol

sianz.. my mum + relatives all going malaysia from monday - saturday
leaving me home alone and she juz left $200....
how how... i muz not splurge them away sia..
or else 2nd finish im broke liao.... sigh sigh sigh....

tml im going with 6 chijtp gals to watch lord of the rings two towers =)
my xiao meis ok... well only 3 of them..
but more xiao meis wun hurt ritez? XD =P
hehhehe... hope i'll hav fun...

tml aso supposed to hav class pot luck
but so much negative response i aso dun wanna go liao....
class sucks.... sianz..
i rather go see show with my xiao meis...
anything organized never turns out well.... class is juz so lousy...
never will be like how it used to be during the 1st 3 mths
now they're all too studious or not enthu abt anything at all...
other classes got like go out hang around...
but mine juz stays home whole day and stone...
even if go out aso go in their own cliques outside frens..
not much of a class huh,....

some of the gals suck... very feminist
some spoilt badly by rich parents...
forever give me ATTITUDE...
cant stand it anymore sia....
most of the guys are cool.. like KR daryl johnathan and texas...
the 36/02 guys RULE man....
dun hav them dunno wad to do liao..
everyday in class get ATTITUDE-ed by a few spoilt gals...
not all of them are bad... some are frenly and nice...
but still not very enthu abt stuff...

so i guess OBS ppl are a much nicer group to be with...
hehz...
tata nitez .....

2002-12-19T05:58:00.000-08:00

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2002-12-17T06:37:00.000-08:00

helloz
been quite long cos was busy with the shine jesus shine rally
held at indoor stadium on 15th dec..
this year's one was really good.. enjoyed a lot co-ordinating all the ushers from young
to old...
got posted as IC of North Entrance external team.. tough job
with all the queue control but we pulled through in the end....

saw this cute pink piggy at bugis juz now
so bought it off as a present...
aso got this crystal globe thingy filled with water and white stuff inside
so it looks like snowing if u shake it...
hmmz...

sch haven started ...
and im already getting busy
with holiday homework which i haven started doing...
history project with research notes to be uploaded by this saturday...
preparing synapse articles... + cca carnival blah blah
can be the death of me...

looking forward to the xmas bbq party this sunday...
den we'll all exchange presents... real fun~ ^___^

feel kinda sad...
i woke up late on monday morning
supposed to go to help paint cca banners
but i just finished sjs rally the last night very late... came home and slept late too
the president called and started yak yak yaking...
its like 10+ in the morning and im damn tired my eyes hurt and body aching....
there were only 2 other ppl with her in sch ... out of the whole synapse
and for some reason she gotta come yak at me... not at the others who juz gave some dumb excuses..
she depends on me for a lot of things... shes hardworking but she just doesnt hav the leadership...
so whenever there are stuff... always come find me to consult.. im the vp
but sometimes i juz cant help... not every single thing...
so now its getting a bit cold... conflicts..
sianz.. dun care.. so many members muz come yak at me...
sucks..

felicia lin came back from australia
shes senior coordinator in the sjs logistics core team...
i joined the core team becos of her... at 1st anyway
shes my first pen pal
and the first gal i had a heavy crush on... + the first gal i fell in love with...
she behaved so alien to me... after all these years..
we juz exchanged a few words at a distance...
when the whole thing ended she gave another core team guy whom she has just met for less than a week a farewell hug
and me?
i juz got a handshake... after so many years...
its damn complicated... crapz
i lost contact with her when she went to study abroad... we had been in the same church same cath class level together
i dunno wad to say... maybe im feeling a depression becos she wasnt frenly enuff with me?
i think shes such a great gal.. so full of energy care and concern for others...
and really beautiful in my eyes...
shes leaving again in feb next yr... maybe i'll write to her or smth... but im scared i dont dare..
this sucks...

bye im going to cry.... :~(

2002-12-08T06:41:00.000-08:00

met with ben david and grace after their church session this morning
went out to town.. had lunch at BK
obs ppl are so fun.... its been so long since ive gone out like this...
juz simply for a meal or smth.. it doesnt matter

in my aj class there'll be no such thing... its always been study study mugging..
not much fun huh...
in obs group smth more can be found
grace went off shopping
so we guys went to do our own shopping for the obs gals too over at taka
after that we went to watch 007 over at cinne....

we went toilet together aso... so funny...
and actually chatted inside the toilet....
i bought 2 windchimes for joycelyn and ruth not only becos i supposedly owe them a treat
but simply becos they are nice frenz
planning to buy one more individual present and share the rest with ben and david...=)

after the show met up with joyce and ruth over at heerens
took our 1st neo print together
which happens to be my 1st too...
back in maris stella... or even my aj class... nvr had chance to take any neo prints...
qt fun lar... i'll be posting some of them up after ben help me scan them in...

tml will be the council chalet.. hope they hav muchie fun..
cant wait for sentosa outing on wed ^___^

p.s. zesin sux zesin sux zesin sux... =P

2002-12-07T08:32:00.000-08:00

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2002-12-07T02:14:00.000-08:00

<`3rG|StAr> i bought this cool little pendant
<`3rG|StAr> seems like those ancient amulet of power
<`3rG|StAr> when i was coming back in the bus near serangoon
<`3rG|StAr> i was sorta like clasping the pendant in my hand
<`3rG|StAr> den suddenly the bus stopped and the doors keep opening and closing
<`3rG|StAr> driver ask everyone go out take another bus
<`3rG|StAr> got some unnatural malfunction
<`3rG|StAr> =)

yea man.. todays j2 farewell party for synapse turned out to be a not-so-bad disaster
but its a disaster anyway as in only 1 senior turned up....
of cos there was the president and surprisingly one other j1 besides me....
so we went down to marina seoul gardens to hav lunch....
ate so much meat meat goat lamb chicken pig blood cow that i nearly puked....
now cant take dinner man,....... sad

so senior left on the mrt after i shook his hand wishing him good luck in NS....
den i went down to heerens searching for a long lost pendant that my ancestors lost
hey bingo!! at the pendant shop i found it ... lalala so cool man...
i like it a lot... so was looking at it halfway when 3 council ambushed me from behind
giving me the shock of my life....
cass ah... ruth ahh.... joycelyn ahhh.... zzz scare me loh
suddenly pop out....

den i felt sian... aso a bit glad to meet some ajcians there.... followed them around shopping
at one store i was like thinking a lot on my cca and stuff.... so got kinda blur and looked up...
they seemed to be gone so i thought they walked off without me or something
so i went out to the balcony

and looked down.... into the face of cecilia lim... head of VA.... omg
another shock... im getting old i cant take too much shocks.....
she was like juz below me and waving madly 'hi kelvin !! hi kelvin!! '

-__________-" wah sian.. so i juz went down to chat a bit with her..... she juz came back from her church
carolling so was all in white.... =)
so i juz left heerens lor sending joyce a msg 'wah sian... u all walk off never tell me.....'
piangz and i got a scolding.... cos it seemed that it was me who walked off and they had tried to call me back
but my phone wasnt on.... dunno wad i was doing... so blur... thinking so much abt CCA

so yea.. i juz sorta apologised... but dunno whether they accepted it or not...
they probably gonna kill me next time ...... maybe on wed.. when we going sentosa...
they gonna throw me overboard the ferry feed me to the sharks...
SHUCKS........ help help.... omg omg omg..........

so i went back home... checked irc
and melissa aso juz came on.... so i start telling her stories
and wrote this part of the blog down...
yap yapz tata.... cya another day...
providing im still alive

2002-12-04T22:47:00.000-08:00

hello...
ok must write something though nothing much to write

oh yea i won the Sitex Egames CS competition held at Singapore Expo
just last saturday...
yea man... won 3rd.. with a lot of cash prizes and goodies....
so cool yar... i got famous already.. clans are inviting me to help them play
to join them blah blah....
but im quitting cs soon anyway
or else i dunno how im gonna handle my A lvls next year..... yepz

so i'll probably be joining the next slangg compy in the following weeks...
will never be able to challenge the top ruling clan GBR winner of WCG Asia and CPL Asia....
but winning 3rd is good enough fame for me!!!

its like a hobby gaming... and ppl are making it into a sorta cyber sports
hey the world championships prize is US $25000 k...
if not for A lvls and NS, i'll surely train harder and make it....
juggling studies and gaming is hard....

sigh... Yea never regret joining OBS
now we're like having many outings and stuff.... and they're great and funny ppl..
though some of them start gossiping about me and some other gal
always like this one lor dunno why.. its always me
so suay one.... haiz...

so yea we're like going sentosa next wed... den afternoon cos joycelyn gotta go be IC for the J2 Prom night thingy
so we gotta escort her back to town.... so will probably be slacking around till 10.30 b4 picking the princess back again...

hmm yea tata... im damn sian now...
if zesin and david online den can laff... okiez lar..
i go stone on my bed... byebye

2002-12-03T19:33:00.000-08:00

sian sian sian...
lol

2002-11-29T03:22:00.000-08:00

ehh yi..
ur the only one reading this rite?
lol
Zzz zzz...
came back from OBS already!!!
SUPER FUN!!
great bonding there.. yea man..
=)

2002-11-23T06:48:00.000-08:00

i was right..
guys are too lazy to do this kinda stuff
probably wont be filling this up much for days to come..
im going OBS course on monday.. lasting to friday..
coming back there'll be 2 cs compys lined up for me.. cheerios..

2002-11-15T16:45:00.000-08:00

the com is back and i am back.

2002-11-15T16:44:00.000-08:00

been suspended from com for 2 days 2 nights.. =(
cos on wed night we went out for free lan party at slangg near
china town point there some ulu-ulu coffee shop
coming down the big old lift when the guys started to be gay
and knocking each other wrestling and brawling basically
so the lift kinda jerked and bummed hard.. and the door never opened after that..
it kept bumping and jerking.. going from 1st to 2nd to 3rd den 3rd to 1st to 3rd..
there were 10 people inside.. althought there was ventilation
maybe it just wasn't enough cos we started to have breathing difficulties...
friends outside + slangg administration kinda useless.. called the lift company ppl
who said they would come in about.. 1 hrs time??! so we called to firemen who didnt respond
an emergency line... luckily we got throught to 999 who said they would
send SOME men down to check at a place they don't even know where...
oh my god.
i wasnt scared at 1st .. we tried to tell jokes and kept calm...
we waited for like 30 min.. when sounds outside confirmed that firemen/police had arrived..
den there was this mad chinese man who passed by
banged on the lift door and we thought it was a fireman so we answered
den he sorta cursed us to die... i thought: i'll show him how to die when i get out..
funny thing is one of my friend still believes he was a fireman and he said that
only to encourage us... zzZZz..
so yea we werent scared until the lights went out and the ventilation stopped
there were only 3 storeys so even if we dropped from the 3rd..
we might just break some bones or something... can't possibly die..
but without ventilation we'll surely die..
everyone was quiet it was dark...
breathing was getting very difficult now... 10 ppl in a lift.. how much oxygen does that take up???
maybe about 10 min past.. and the door finally opened...
seemed that the firemen had gone to the generator room and tampered around with it...
we were grad to have survived... many of us choking for air when we got out...
it was 12.30am then... my Mum like didn't feel concerned at all.. instead i got scolding for not calling and coming back
earlier.. and in the first place i shouldn't have gone at all...
can't anyone show some concern??? i nearly died for god's sake...
damn angry damn scared damn confused...
that night i took the lift up home..
what? walk 10 storeys up?
i'll probably have collapsed from exhaustion..
think twice before taking old lifts in the future...

2002-11-10T07:17:00.000-08:00

i guess this kinda stuff arent for guys..
too lazy to keep it up regularly like gals do..
they enter long blogs too.. like stepf..
no one ever reads this stuff anyway.. for me..
keke so probably juz toking to myself..
/me waves at self.
tata next few days SAT SAT SAT all the way
go go go.. gonna die..

2002-11-07T00:11:00.000-08:00

Kiss - Because Im a girl
listening to it never tires..
so tml is AO chinese exams..
and there is no need for any
preparations.. finished OP today
1st issue of Synapse 19th Board
came out as well...
Try to have fun in a funless world

2002-11-05T03:12:00.000-08:00

love is about sacrifice and trust..
if u are afraid to lose someone because of love
then it maybe that u will never get to love..
there is bound to be hardships and misharps
but these are naught but trials to test
how strong the flame of love is...
what is the fear of losing compared to love from the heart?
*to have loved you is better than not at all...*

adios,
a certain idealising stargazer

2002-11-05T03:08:00.000-08:00

If I have a million dollars, I would buy a house. do I have a million? No.
that's why I don't have a house.

If I have wings, I can fly. do I have wings? No. so I can never fly.

If all the waters are drawn out of Pacific Ocean, but it still can't put off the flame of love between us. Can all the waters of Pacific Ocean be drawn off? No. That's why I don't love you.

If I have one more day to live, I want to be your boyfriend. Do I have one more day? No. Too bad. I can't be your boyfriend... not in this life.
If I have wings, I want to fly down from the paradise just to see you. Do I have wings? No. Sadly. I can never see you again.

If all the water are drawn out of the bath-tub, but it still can't put off the flame of love btw us. Can all the water in a bath-tub be drawn off? Can.

So yes. I LOVE YOU.

2002-11-02T18:00:00.000-08:00

deepavali tml..
met sentill in irc yesterday nite..
funny guy!! he acted as a evil demon who went bwhahahaha..
-___________-""
nothing much to do .. i juz dun wanna start on any of the
holiday homework...
esplanade is a great place.. very scenic and romantic...
can go there for a meal and sight-seeing..
take a slow boat ride and hear the waves
sit down and stare at the night sky
lalala~

2002-10-28T05:22:00.000-08:00

>______<~~
diarrhoea.. serious stomach upset..
arghhh... wad did i eat wrong?
the chiKen rice? or the WAN TAN MEE????
>___<~~
hurtz bad... pain pain paiN!!
gonna take medicine and rest early tonite...
might not be going sch tml den...
its gonna be a long way with PE anywayz.. =/ =\ =| ( ._. )

2002-10-26T09:03:00.000-07:00

The dream of my life at the moment...
CPL Asia is coming.. hosted in Singapore~
dream come true... It's so exciting...
starts from 22-24th Nov.. And well, I have confidence in my team
We will make a name for ourselves...=)
So cheer us on!!

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To have loved you is better than not at all.

2002-10-24T04:31:00.000-07:00

-=Journeys In a Dream 2=-
The light drew nearer.. nearer.. nearer..
It is a myriad of colours.. And it is so beautiful...
The swirling light gives out a bright flare,
piercing the surrounding darkness...
It disintegrates into millions of small pieces zooming out
in all directions..
They take their place in the void, merging and swirling
growing and glowing.. I feel warmth.
A cow floats past and disappears.. I stare..
So cows do dream after all.. How it found its way into mine
Only Heaven knows..
And as for those lights.. It dawns upon me
that they are in truth stars..
And I am witnessing the birth of a multi-verse
populated by zillions and zillions of stars..

2002-10-24T04:22:00.000-07:00

Notice how the library windows outside LT1 shine and reflect the morning rays..
well thats cos i wiped them through and through again during my 2 period YEOMAN.. =X
though it was one and a half hour of hard work + sweat.. it felt rather good to do something for AJ
at least can walk past that corridor in a different light.. but.. oWw.. hands do hurt from all the scrubbing
that was actually done on monday..
nothing much happened today.. the usual full day school all the way until 4.45pm..
And every subject gave piles of homework.. so horrible.. for just one paper from literature..
we had to do 7 essays... oh god.. help....
guess christmas wont be so merry anymore yarz... Æ_Æ
well tomolo is the festival of life... at least no lessons.. haiZz..
thats life in a JC for you...

2002-10-23T07:11:00.000-07:00

thanks to melissa's pot of luck.. ive passed my promos
yay...
ive even kept some of it just in case... one never knows when bad luck comes along.. lol
Æ_Æ <-- well thats my new face..
but even when promos are over .. there is still so much to do..
flooded with projects and stuff.. so stressful...
cant wait for holidays to come ... but again.. there is the OBS course and gotta prepare for SJS 2002..
added on with holiday homework.. there wont be a life anymore...
tata.. cya
cont. with my crap journeys in dreams another time... =D

2002-10-23T06:55:00.000-07:00

-=Jouneys In a Dream 1=-
It is night. No.. it is more than that.
It is darkness... Where am i?
Nothing stirs.. And i am floating along in this black existence..
There is nothing and i feel so lost.. so lost.. so lost..
Dread and fear.. And a new feeling.. SIANZzz!!
I laugh.. And no sound came out.. Is there anything out here at all?
I float on.. And moment passes..
In and out of consciousness.. i wake to greet the dark void
to scream in a vacuum..
A light. Am i dreaming? A dream within a dream.. The world has gone nuts.
Float on.. float on.. float on.. towards that faint hope..
Enveloped in eternal darkness..
... ...